why am i like this toward death?

Asked: why am i like this toward death?

Okay so human death doesn't bother me. I'm immune to it. I've had my mom die,my mom's best friend die. My grandad die…my dads co-worker die. My dads sister and everytime i find out someone has died …I don't feel anything. this may be sick….but i don't feel sympathy either. Like my aunts best friend's son died yesterday ….and I'm just like "okay he died". It may be hard on her. I know. I just don't feel anything from human death. Now…..animal death. I'll cry my eyes out. Even if its one i was never close too. Like my old cat malibu had to be put down. And she hated me….always hissed and what not. But when we had to put her down. I couldn't keep myself from crying. My dog deliah is my best friend and i can't even imagine….her gone. I'm such a animal person. I love dogs especially. Ever since i was little…dogs would come up to me. And i would always give them back to their owners. They still do for some reason but i do love dogs. Horses are after that. I love big animals. the only animal o don't like is the llama. They always spit at me. And they just piss me off… but Why do you think I'm like this towards death? I mean when my mom died….i didn't even cry i.just pretended to cry so my sister.wouldn't call me out. Sick but true. When.my mom died. I knew she was going to die soon. She was.an alcoholic. And was depressed most of the time